x_______BROKENDOLL

alone sometimes

2010-11-18T17:11:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I miss being alone.
Where you can be extra efficient,
Less happiness but also less things to think about.
You swim alone lik a fish, you go shopping alone and no one asks you why.
End of the day, there's no one whom can't live wo anyone.

if only

2010-11-13T23:17:00.001+08:00

Babe's gonna be 7months soldier soon. I wish for this tormenting cycle to be over soon. Life would not be so hard for both of us. I miss seeing my boy every single day.

2010-10-20T19:38:00.001+08:00

Was the quality that attracted you then making you take many steps back now? Why isit possible to hate someone you love?
The world's just making all of us love fools

2010-10-20T02:56:00.002+08:00

am not gonna just watch myself fall and do nothing about it.
realise the mistake and accept the god damn harsh fact,
stand by your own belief and hold on with determination.
its something that i dont want to let go,
show me am right.

2010-10-18T18:05:00.001+08:00

Sometimes somethings just makes you feel lik crap. When you gain something you lose something. Mayb am prone to overstress myself by putting everyth tgt. But if there isn't anything, i won't ve chance to put everyth tgt right?

Independence.

2010-05-28T06:35:00.001+08:00

Somehow or rather, i felt that everyone is capable of changing. Either good or bad. But it makes me realised that everyone gotta learn and accept independence one day in order to protect yourself. Everything rules down to, you made your own choice. Eventually I would learnt.
Not to wait a few hours till it's day break before using the bathroom, tuck myself back to sleep even when I scream for you when I experienced a nightmare, cough quietly and so i could pretend you didn't hear me.
It's the matter of time of getting used to it. Cos the physical and mental factor is no longer different.

Army daze

2010-05-05T22:41:00.001+08:00

Nvr once I've heard you saying I love you alot till you start tearing. Makes me feel all weak and miss you even more. Awwwww.

Army daze

2010-05-05T03:32:00.001+08:00

I still miss my boyf alot. Yessss I know I don't sound lik myself. Am very dependent on him. I feel lik something's missing in my life. No one to watch tv w me at night, no one to kiss my forehead when I fell asleep before him, no one to snatch my baby bolster w me. Wo you, I cannot sleep w lights off, I cannot sleep w tv off. Really miss you badly! I feel lik a kid now. Cos I feel very handicap wo you, and at th same time I can't help you in any way. All I can do is worry, support you mentally. 16 more days t go! I hope I will grow t be much stronger as day goes by.

2010-04-03T16:44:00.001+08:00

Officially one more month but I've to crying myself to sleep almost everynight. There's many things that I've to leave it till two years later. I've got to achieve many things in this two years for a better life in the near future.

I kinda dislike the way how we agreed about something yet things always don't come out as expected, seriously. Enough of staying in bed for four days a week. And only being active in th night.
Things being linked up all th time is always terrible, horrible.

2010-01-17T13:18:00.002+08:00

" it takes forever to build a bond but one second to break it"
i realised, no matter how much you do, its up to whether someone accept it.
words are cheap, life is unpredictable.
the older you get, more commitments are there to handle.
i told babbbe, that am guilty of getting envy of others by just looking on the surface.
in fact, i got everything i want, and yes, everyth i didnt ask for.
new year marks a new beginning, a tougher path to walk.
work and school, total nutcase, feels lik a non-stop hits.
friends and family, my absence from everyth doesnt mean i wanna forgo everyth. i still and always cherish.
and to myself, i will learn to really stop bearing grudges, let go of all the unhappiness and continue to feel this oh-so-blissful love.
& freaking get my ink done!!!!

2010-01-03T04:12:00.003+08:00

its 2010, been together with babbbe for 10months.
too used to having him next to me when i sleep, feels so weird without him around.
am tired, but i cant seem to fall asleep.
a new year ahead, i hope we would have even brighter days ahead of us.
never thought i would be so blissfully in love.
someone who is always there for me, physically, mentally.
someone who doesnt let me walk home alone.
someone who would go the extra miles to stand by me.
someone who pampers me that much.
i miss my humpty boy!
bet i will miss him even more when he enters the army, awwwwwwwwwww!
i believe we would overcome his 2 years of army together.
it aint easy for us in the beginning, but it only made our love stronger.
i love you babbbbe.

2009-12-16T14:29:00.003+08:00

its gonna rain! but i wanna go out, but theres no where to go ;(
am hungry but theres nothing to eattttt!
love must be enjoying herself in bkk!
i cant wait for xmas either! penang for a week with babbbbe!
till then!
& babbbe says my blog is very boring. idk why too. HAHA

dedication

2009-10-12T01:56:00.002+08:00

flashbacks came thru my mind,
from someone that is unreachable,
to someone that i cannot bear to get my eyes off.
pride never gets in the way,
love was never too far away.
there are times which we both jumped for joy,
there are times which we both breakdown and cry,
there are times which we both tried to throw tantrums,
there are times which we both behave like a kid asking for candy.
things about us, could nvr be erased, be it good or bad.
& i will always safeguard and cherish this special bond we share.
cos i dont wish to settle for the second best.

love you, babbbbaye

learn from love

2009-09-27T14:16:00.002+08:00

on a happy note, batam trip (:

wished days there could last
even tho my prada phone died on me on go kart
making us no mood to snap pictures

2009-08-05T00:05:00.009+08:00

nvr felt tht blessed
you told me whats most impt was for me t feel comfortable, thts all.
really, place doesnt matter, what matters th most is th companion.
feel me, feel my heart, feel my world.

look at happy babbbe and baby jameson. awwww

long neck animal

Babbbe's 18th birthday

Love's 18th!

countdown to 9more days! am so gonna bug babbbe.

2009-08-02T00:49:00.002+08:00

happy belated 5th.

bring me steps closer to the future.

note t myself: create events post

2009-06-29T08:54:00.002+08:00

exams week!
in-a-daze mode

ought t say am happy w you
straightforward and sweet,
not sadness

till then...

2009-06-23T23:42:00.002+08:00

morning lik this

days lik these

slow down one week, fast forward two. fill my anticipation

2009-06-20T16:42:00.002+08:00

nvr knew
empty wishlist
simplicity my way
know it inside is insufficient

"nvr take you for granted"
your promises sealed.

2009-06-08T01:30:00.001+08:00

lying at the corner of my bed.
make me go t sleeeepppppppppppppppppp.

surprise treats,
surprise plans,
surprise me.

2009-05-17T18:01:00.000+08:00

egalitarian? ha
i just need t whine

2009-05-16T14:58:00.003+08:00

short or long?
classroom politics
overloaded schoolwork/lsns
anticipated good old days, better days ahead, soon.

2009-05-06T22:55:00.002+08:00

fight t live.
smile t sorrow
smile even more t happiness
somewhere near, you said.

2009-05-04T11:05:00.002+08:00

Happy belated 2nd! (:

2009-02-10T21:24:00.002+08:00

heard th unexpected,
seen th unexpected,
spoke th unexpected.

leave this town,
i can see nothing from here.